
Hello world, I’m writing this blog after having an mental breakdown and ended up crying for an 1 hour straight.
It’s been a minute since I’ve written something personal. But I’ve lost count of the amount of weeks we’ve been in lock-down. So I think it’s fitting to write something!
There’s a lot happening in the world right now! People fighting for basic human rights, the right to live harmoniously in the colour of their own skin and not be victim to systematic oppression like police brutality and judicial injustice. These tensions are heightened by the backdrop of a global pandemic. I have a lot of words I would like to say about the racial injustice’s happening right now! But I will hopefully write another blog post about it!
Activism is a life long commitment but it doesn’t mean you can’t take a break. Finding the balance between being informed and protecting your mental health can be a hard one! These external events can lead to great internal pressures on your mind! But I want to write some positive and encouraging words for everyone during this time. Because God knows we need it.

How to deal with the ‘unfamiliar’ feelings of anxiety and depression
Mental health and self care is really important right now! There’s no two ways of saying it. I often don’t speak about my personal mental health because I considered myself as an ‘all around happy person.’ But is there such a thing as an ‘all round happy person’ ? If there’s one thing the lock-down has taught me, it is that you could be the most mentally healthy person (whatever that means) and still suffer from some kind of mental trauma.
I have previously written about mental health in the Asian community and how it’s often a taboo to talk about with parents and family. I have found this to be largely the problem right now. As I spend time in lock-down with only my family to support me, I am struggling to talk to them about my feelings, anxiety attacks and depressive episodes.

My experience through lock-down can only be described as turbulent. I have been through lots of highs and some lows. But it is the lows which I remember the most ! Then, I suddenly hit a brick wall and don’t know where to turn. It’s difficult to stay with your family for prolonged amount of times after having the ability to constantly go out. Its the confinement of space! You can go a bit crazy! The repetition of my life makes me mindless about what the next day will bring. I build a sense of tolerance within me to keep each day moving as smoothly as possible. But at times it’s difficult to move so crying releases the emotions. I find it difficult to talk about my emotions, but this where it needs to change.
Que motivational speech…….
I’m not going to say “if you do these things, you won’t ever have these feelings again” but the principle of this blog post is to open up the conversation of mental health, speak out and share our experiences. So here’s some points I feel are important to consider…
Take a deep breath………. and move to productive change and try to better yourself. Don’t dwell on the negatives.
Continuously thinking about the problem will make you sad or upset and will not help your mental situation. So put your energy into something worth your time, like blogging, reading or exercising!

It’s okay to cry! I experience eruptions of emotions. I’m the type of person who keeps thoughts and emotions bottled up which inevitably get released. Don’t be afraid to cry, it will make you stronger. Here’s why it’s important to cry!
Write it down! Make a blog post to share with the world or keep it private with a diary. It works for a lot of people, so go for it! I am a Muslim. So my prayer and religion is my release and therapy, if you like. If speaking to God is a remedy, don’t be afraid to do it or say it.
Don’t ever try to be someone your’re not! This one is quite dear to my heart, because throughout my school life I have always tried to someone I am not and now regret taking the stress I did. Be yourself no matter what! The cliche is killing me!
Control the amount of information you are taking in! The world events seem big and your mind is small to limit your media diet!

Don’t worry because you’re not alone. Just talk about it however you see fit because saying nothing is the worst.
Activism is a life long commitment and social change is a slow process and will not happen over night.
Lots of love and take care , Anisah xx




















